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My dad passed away last Monday, after being in the hospital for five days,  he was just tired of being alone, I know he hasn't been happy since my mom passed four years ago.......but he had heart surgery for me two years ago, he had asked me what I wanted him to do, I told him I love you dad, and if it was up to me you would be here with me forever, but you have to do what is right for you, if you feel it is time and you are ready to be with mom, I would have to understand and accept, but I would miss you very much.......so he had the aorta replacement, although he did sign a DNR......He also had renal failure so he knew even with the surgery his time would be limited......with this illness and me not knowing he was ill for five days into it, he was extremely dehydrated, causing his kidneys to almost completely shut down....and he started refusing food........we had decided on hospice and I had gone into the hospital to discuss it with a social worker......and was signing the papers when dad just quit breathing, he didn't want to be messed with any more.......he went peacefully Thank God........no pain...... he went quietly, as I would have expected, he was always a quiet  calm man in life, I loved and looked up to him, he was the most honest respectable good man, I have ever known................I miss him so much